I did it. I quit my job. This morning I met with my principal and said "I have decided not to work next year. " She said "Not work AT ALL!!!" Then I said, " I want to be a full time mother. This decission feels good in my soul." No argument after that. She respected my decission.
This is something I have been debating for years now. Just this last Tuesday it hit me like a ton of bricks that this is what I NEED to do and this is something I CAN do. I've really lacked the faith until now. And now I am at total peace with this decission. I think I have waited so long to do this because being a full time mom is more difficult than what I do now. But now I know I can do it. Right now I feel a little like my identity is lost. I've been a teacher for 7+ years. Now I'm a new identity- full time "Mother". I know I'll be blessed. I feel blessed already. I look at Jane and I know I can do this. She's so darling and getting more fun every day. I don't want any regrets.
There are a few people that helped me with this decission. First ,I want to thank my husband for being my #1 supporter emotionally and now physically. Breyn, for "that" email. Kimi, for loving and embracing motherhood and giving me the fabulous book "I Am A Mother". Thanks to my two sisters Lindsey and Annie and my Aunt Sallie and Susan, who have been a good example to me at staying home with their children even though they could make some serious dough with their brilliant brains. Thanks to all my friends, those who work and don't work...we all have our own story and do what we gotta do. My mom, for being there at the crossroads. Lastly, thanks to my Heavenly Father, for knowing me as an idividual and giving me strength. Peace out.