Thursday, October 22, 2009

Day by Day

Thank you everyone for your love and support.

I'm taking things day by day. Each time I think of Katie I get teary eyed or start to cry. I went to the temple last night to find some peace. It was good for me. I've been wanting to respond to an email she sent me a week ago, but I am finally starting to except what has happened and that she's not there on the other end. I have gone through some feelings of anger. Angry because of the situation Jon (her husband) is in...living in Italy with no family, angry because her two boys will never know their mother, angry, selfishly, that Katie won't be checking in with me. Luckily I have a husband that turns pretty much everything into a positive and those angry feelings are gone. Now I'm just sad. But, life has to move on. I will continue to pray for Katie's family and not forget her. The ironic thing is that Katie's friend Sarah, died a few weeks earlier after delivering a child also. Katie was so upset about this, but was also very understanding and used her faith to comfort her. I bet Katie and Sarah had a wonderful reunion. I hope they meet Allison. Three amazing women. I am so grateful to know that we have a loving Heavenly Father that will watch over those who are left behind. I'm grateful to know about the Plan of Salvation and how this earthly life is just a small part. As I was leaving the temple last night, for the first time since Katie's death, I thought of some good memories I had of her. I smiled. Didn't cry. What a blessing.


4 comments:

Allison said...

Tiffany you are so sweet. You are a great friend. I hope that your pain will get lighter each day. I am so sorry that you are experiencing this.

Sissy Jackson said...

Sweetheart, my heart is aching for you. You and Katie's fam are in my prayers. Cry when you need to. YOU are an amazing friend. You made her life fuller for knowing you. I LOVE YOU!

annie valentine said...

You and Katie's family have been on my mind so much, I don't really know what to say besides I love you. I feel so lucky to be stuck here on earth with my children right now.

Heather said...

Tiff, I've been deeply affected by the loss of your friend. I recently have had a very traumatic experience involving the unexpected loss of someone close to me. Many times it seems so senseless and yet the knowledge we have is very comforting. You and Kaite's family are in my thoughts and prayers. Love you.